I’m Tired, But It’s a Good Tired

But not a great tired because I don’t want to jinx it

Kathy Copeland Padden
2 min readOct 21, 2023

Here’s the bottom line, fam. My life has been a complete shitstorm for the last few years. Barely scraping by financially, family drama, health challenges, and one long job search from hell.

Then just over a week ago, an online publishing company read this, and offered me a job. Once again, my late sister saves my ass. I love you, Shaz.

And it's a great gig. The work is pretty easy, the editors are lovely, and the pay is fair. It’s all I’ve been trying to manifest for years. So why aren’t I happy dancing or crying with relief? What the hell is wrong with me?

I was talking with a dear old friend of mine yesterday about this curious situation I find myself in.

“I just can’t get too excited. It feels like hubris, and I don’t want to —

“ — Jinx yourself.”

“Exactly!” I’m just waiting for — ”

“ — The other shoe to drop.”

“Sigh. Yes.”

He knows me too well.

I highly recommend finding a friend who can read your neurodivergent mind. Makes life so much easier.

“It’s not going to, Kath.”



Kathy Copeland Padden

is a music fanatic, classic film aficionado, and history buff surfing the End Times wave like a boss. Come along!